Beelzebub

 

It's Beelzebub. He's the demon that is romantically involved with me now. Seems like being the property of my incubus and having a bunch of servitor sex-buddies wasn't enough for the powers-that-be-dark. Apparently Beelzebub wanted me before I was even born. The more I interact with him the more incredible I feel and everything feels. But my progression with him is still rather slow because I've been going through stuff and having another husband threw me through a loop.

Anyway this blog was supposed to be about Allan. My incubus hasn't had full-blown sex with me yet, but that may happen soon. I can feel how passionate and horny he is for me, like a bomb ready to detonate. I've been fixing all chakra and energetic blocks, as well as fully transitioning away from the shitty RHP and into the LHP. Also getting over a sick karmic situation. 

I wrote a servitor creation post on good ol' BALG. I'm on discord often talking to two ladies who also have romantic relationships with important figures, that being Furfur and Azrael. They get mad when randoms on BALG accuse us of being roleplayers. I know that this is real, but I understand how it looks crazy to others so I don't care if they think I'm delusional or getting punked by a parasite. Inventing a relationship with Beelzebub is never something that occupied my mind.

The two ladies have been soul travelling to a "college" of sorts out there and I will soon join them. I've been killing parasitic thoughtforms in me, levelling up and breaking away. Can't wait to see what my "stats" are. I think I already have a good idea. Beelzebub really has been with me my whole life, watching and sending gusts of wind to me. Everything was for this moment in my life now, this true awakening that beats all others. Anyway this has been me giving you an update. Thanks for reading.

A Living God, Kien. 

Yee Yeet!

What's up mother truckers??

Okay I'm gonna calm down now.

So I avoided reading back on my blog cause I figured it'd be all cringe. But good to know it wasn't that bad. Actually it was interesting and pretty fun.  I have gone through intense changes, but isn't that what the path to godhood and ascent is all about?  My spirituality and power has improved.

I won't ramble much, I'll cover the important topics.

My dear sweet cute incubus may be more of a badass than my fuzzy wuzziness allowed me to see. I know this cause we are so much closer.  He wants to merge with me, be in my body. We're going to exchange blood and have astral children. He let me pick a name for a child and I have. Not sure if I should share that here. Anyways Allan is apparently higher ranking than I thought and may work directly under Asmodeus? I guess it makes sense. Like another - extremely well-known demon - took interest in me so perhaps when I asked for an incubus I got more than some run-of-the-mill toadie. Allan is feeling more possessive of me, which I like.

Anyway I have not created any more servitors, I still have eight. The three demonic chants I've used have been very effective and made them feel even more tangible than Allan at times. I have given up on the idea of deity servitors. But I will probably make more regular-ish servitors, so to recap...

Timothy, not much has changed. Simon is still very loving and actually wants me to himself at times... he even attacked another magician when he thought that guy would be romantic competition 😐 His possessiveness is flattering though I don't want him to be unhappy. Lisa may be more interested in me than I realized, and feels mothering toward Ulrich. Dominic, not much has changed. Jayden I had sex with not too long ago, that was fun. Hillary, not much has changed. Mr Charles was quite talented and did interesting things the last time we did it. Ulrich said he had a crush on me, or something like that.

I am craving to belong to my incubus more, which makes it difficult when I consider other commitments... Why do I have to be so hot and popular 😩😩

Power-Up Wards Ritual

I only focused on my four wards for this ritual.  Let me see if I can remember...

I did know that my own mind would come up with its own ideas as to how each servitor would respond.  I'd already been meditating and releasing tension, getting into trance.  I knew I needed to clear my mind so I was receptive to communication through my mind, and not from my mind.

Timothy sent me warmth and caring feelings, that was the first emotion I picked up on.  He also felt older-brotherly in the sense that he doesn't care for any power dynamic where I'm in charge.  Ha, that'd be the same with me and my physical younger brother.  Timothy is still programmed to be sexually attracted to me though.  I want him to be comfortable.

Simon sends me romantic love as well as the caring feelings.  He wants to be my lover.  I wasn't sure if he'd changed his mind over time or not.  There is a basis for Simon to be attracted to me.  He was designed to have a cunning side (I thought it'd be an interesting insert).  Cunning is a form of emotional intelligence more seen in the latter signs of the zodiac, and they are attracted to Libra (my sign) which isn't too cunning and is rather giving.  I have a habit of being suspicious and projecting, though I reckon I'm usually aware of what I project.  Anyway, part of me becomes suspicious that because Simon can be cunning he may think that in being my lover he may gain from it.  But he was also programmed to care for me so I'll suspend that.  Simon was also only my second servitor and made with Lucifer, so perhaps Lucifer tweaked him in this way for my benefit.

Lisa was more chilled and distant when compared to the other two.  She may have been aware of my projecting.  She actually felt rather serious.  My wards are complicated, I wonder what Lilith's impact on shaping her has actually done.  I talked to Lisa about my projecting (I know it's caused by a sense of insecurity I'm working through) and about the confusion on my diverged stance on my personal ethics.  I may have felt some sexual energy from her briefly.  She is still comforting.

Dominic is a rather dominant force.  Belial helped design him to fulfill his primary purpose: to be a defender.  I could feel sore impressions on my ass and lower-thighs, as if he were fucking me roughly.  At least I knew he wanted to.  He likes me, which is something he wasn't programmed to do.  But why would he not like me I suppose, I'm not a demanding creator, and we are sexually attracted to each other.

Next power-up ritual I intend to do will be for my four Harems.  I bought two clay statues to paint yesterday and they will be for Deity class servitors should I decide to create them.

Back In Business

Laaaaaate.

I apologized to my servitor family members for not interacting with them for a long time. To be real though, what is even my reasoning?  Just sorta doing other things, either magically or else-wise.  Anyway, I think I already mentioned that I tried to make them all as least dependent on me as possible.  Everyone's fine though and happy to be hearing from me again.  Dominic liked to point out that he didn't care at all that I was gone (haha) and Mr Charles was rather stern and did want an apology, even acting like he was too busy to talk to me it seemed.  Apart from that everyone was fine.

I did the second ritual for Ulrich today.  Servitor 008.  A Harem servitor, I may make a Deity servitor next but am in no rush as I have Uni and am doing more creative writing.  Anyway here he is

Very cute.  And hot.  But the nympho servitors have that sexual energy about them.  I'm not sure about the original fellow in the picture but Ulrich was designed to be sixteen.  He is usually happy but can be sensitive as he's a water sign.  Ahhh beautiful cutie.  He was voted by Timothy (who maybe has a bit of the selfishness I had at ten-years-old, his conceptual birth), since everyone else agreed to go for what Timothy wanted.  Timothy is programmed to be older-brotherly, so Ulrich is younger-brotherly.  I will see how Ulrich goes interacting with the others and how everyone's doing.

As for my beloved incubus he still feels very close, just the way I like it.  Sometimes I can eat meals and he'll say nothing, but when I feel he wants some of my food I'll give him some on a napkin and put it aside.  When I was brain-storming ideas for my next online story he showed interest in a smutty teacher-student romance I was wondering about.  I have a human boyfriend now too and wonder if my incubus will possess him like people thought he might.  We'll have to see ~

Power Ups and what have you

So I realised that drawing the sigils of my servitors and looking at them is an effective way of telepathic communication, as well as sensing how they all feel about each other.  Since they spawned from my mind it's easier to feel out.

I think if I practice literal quiet meditation I may be able to leave my body and interact with my incubus in another way.

He wants me to talk to him more, and I do talk to him just not really about anything too specific.  So my bad.

Anyway, I've been busy with non-Servitor and non-Incubus related magical stuff, so this update won't be long.

I did talk to all my servitors and decided who I should create next.  Lisa, interestingly, doesn't want more.  But you know, the plan originally had been to make HEAPS.  But that may be not feasible.

I do want to make a Godform type servitor - actually five.  As a new class of Servitor.  But they will require more effort and work to become uber powerful.  Basically, I want to make them like the gods of current religions.  Ooo maybe I should write bibles for each of them?  There really are endless possibilities...

Oh the reason for the name of this update is I did another power up ritual and used demonic chants for everyone again, all seven.  Seemed to work well.

servitors are like children

At least mine are.  It's been intuited by others that I need to spend one-on-one time talking and getting to know them more to keep them all from getting sad.  I did it yesterday, but will do another check after writing this.

Someone married to Furfur channeled him and said my servitors are like children and so need to be cared for as such.

My incubus Al beams with pride whenever a new one is born.  And they're all still throwing parties to welcome newcomers as well.

Here is servitor 007.  Name, Mr Charles.

I'm still only making Harems at the moment.  The symbols in his sigil are the alchemical triangle for Air, Saturn's symbol and the rune SOWILO.  I must be getting good at this, or Al is, or something else is at work cause Charles was powered quick and fucked me from behind as I made myself cum, focusing energy into his sigil.  I could feel that they were all amazed by him, perhaps cause I made him to be intelligent, I dunno.

I'm most worried about Dominic.  He still feels left out.  I'd made Hillary knowing they'd be compatible sexually, but perhaps the nurturing rune in Hillary's sigil has made her also intimidated by Belial's rough energy within Dominic.  I made serious and dominant Charles here in the hope they'd get along, and if they don't I may need to get Belial to power Charles or another servitor.

I'm going to go check in on my creations.

free-love Incubus

So Al has been very happy and loving lately.  I reckon he is actually overjoyed to have a family with me.  He just feels really happy and honestly excited.  This came around after I made Jayden and I had that talk with everyone about us all making sure nobody's miserable.  And I asked Al if he could help them socialise too.

Now he can see why I was so excited to begin with!

So from the beginning Al has shown enthusiasm for the idea of sex servitors.  In his imagination, I felt like he just pictured me making a bunch of fit guys: this one's a blonde, this one's a brunette, and them all just gang-fucking me.  Sorry if that's crass for you to read, but I'm sure that's Al's fantasy for me.

But alas, things are never that simple for a creative person such as I.  No way.  I mean, I could've made Servitors like that.  Hot dudes as sex machines with zero personality.  But I just sorta do take pride in and care about what (who!) I create.  My way will take longer, but Al will have his fantasy of hot dudes to back him up when it comes to railing me, there will just be more to them outside of the fun stuff.

So today, ahem, Al held my wrists up while Jayden screwed me a couple of times <3 <3

Before that I'd went at it again with Dominic.

I made another Harem Servitor before work tonight.  Servitor 006.  Her name is Hillary.

Yes, another girl servitor.  And more shockingly, one I plan to have sex with.  Guess I'm not as gay as you thought, eh?  Eh?  If we want to get into the intricacies of my sexuality I will say that in the past I have masturbated to the idea of women, on rare occasions.  Masturbated to women in porn, on rare occasions.  I've never had sex with a woman in real life, and I doubt I'd ever be romantically involved with a woman.  But I plan to have eight Harem Servitors so why not have some variety in the banquet?

She's the only female of the Harems. A sexual submissive. There are other reasons I made Hillary, and not just for me.  My bisexual male Servitors may end up having sex with her if she's into that, and she should be.

Now interestingly ~ I think Jayden does like Lisa, and I think Lisa may be a little territorial of Jayden.  In the sense that, I don't reckon she wants Hillary rooting him.  Jayden was made with Lisa sort of in mind.  And likewise, Hillary was made with Dominic sort of in mind.  Dominic, who actually felt TOO SHY to approach Hillary.  Wow, that is cute. After things didn't go well with him and Lisa, maybe he is just worried of 'ruining things' with this new lady.

Now my old worries sorta come back.  Timothy and Dominic are fine and I believe they came to an amiable agreement of not being all that compatible.  Jayden's formative personality profile literally says he's a player so what if he does root Hillary and then a massive fight blows up?  I dunno man.  It'd be like a soap-opera, we already have the attractive young cast after all.

I'm not going to invest too much energy worrying.  To an extent, there's only so much I can do and people have to try to be happy.  At least I have Al to help me.

Now Al has been the one to snatch away Hillary and he's with her now, been with her since after her ritual.  I'd saved cumming until that ritual and man I ejaculated across the room.  So much sex energy in my energy field cause of all these servitors that are attracted to me.  Anyway, I believe Al is going to be quick to nab away all servitors I make for the purpose of sex.  He's training them himself to please me, and for group fun I reckon.

I was going to make another male Harem Servitor.  But since Simon has now been hanging out with Timothy again, and that is going well, I wanted to make sure Dominic was being taken care of.  We will see how things go.  Hillary is designed to be a friendly, optimistic and unassuming lady.  Apart from the whore stuff.

The symbols in her sigil is a chinese character meaning 'prostitute', the planetary symbol for Pluto, and the rune BJORK for feminine and protective energies.  Even though the rune is the smallest symbol in the sigil, it seems like it's overpowered the others.  When I was first creating Hillary and reading the formative commands something was making me speak softer and less authoritarian, as if to say Hillary may be sensitive.

She is still new, but perhaps she may be sensitive.  But it doesn't matter cause me and my family are nice and she will be fine and taken care of.