free-love Incubus

So Al has been very happy and loving lately.  I reckon he is actually overjoyed to have a family with me.  He just feels really happy and honestly excited.  This came around after I made Jayden and I had that talk with everyone about us all making sure nobody's miserable.  And I asked Al if he could help them socialise too.

Now he can see why I was so excited to begin with!

So from the beginning Al has shown enthusiasm for the idea of sex servitors.  In his imagination, I felt like he just pictured me making a bunch of fit guys: this one's a blonde, this one's a brunette, and them all just gang-fucking me.  Sorry if that's crass for you to read, but I'm sure that's Al's fantasy for me.

But alas, things are never that simple for a creative person such as I.  No way.  I mean, I could've made Servitors like that.  Hot dudes as sex machines with zero personality.  But I just sorta do take pride in and care about what (who!) I create.  My way will take longer, but Al will have his fantasy of hot dudes to back him up when it comes to railing me, there will just be more to them outside of the fun stuff.

So today, ahem, Al held my wrists up while Jayden screwed me a couple of times <3 <3

Before that I'd went at it again with Dominic.

I made another Harem Servitor before work tonight.  Servitor 006.  Her name is Hillary.

Yes, another girl servitor.  And more shockingly, one I plan to have sex with.  Guess I'm not as gay as you thought, eh?  Eh?  If we want to get into the intricacies of my sexuality I will say that in the past I have masturbated to the idea of women, on rare occasions.  Masturbated to women in porn, on rare occasions.  I've never had sex with a woman in real life, and I doubt I'd ever be romantically involved with a woman.  But I plan to have eight Harem Servitors so why not have some variety in the banquet?

She's the only female of the Harems. A sexual submissive. There are other reasons I made Hillary, and not just for me.  My bisexual male Servitors may end up having sex with her if she's into that, and she should be.

Now interestingly ~ I think Jayden does like Lisa, and I think Lisa may be a little territorial of Jayden.  In the sense that, I don't reckon she wants Hillary rooting him.  Jayden was made with Lisa sort of in mind.  And likewise, Hillary was made with Dominic sort of in mind.  Dominic, who actually felt TOO SHY to approach Hillary.  Wow, that is cute. After things didn't go well with him and Lisa, maybe he is just worried of 'ruining things' with this new lady.

Now my old worries sorta come back.  Timothy and Dominic are fine and I believe they came to an amiable agreement of not being all that compatible.  Jayden's formative personality profile literally says he's a player so what if he does root Hillary and then a massive fight blows up?  I dunno man.  It'd be like a soap-opera, we already have the attractive young cast after all.

I'm not going to invest too much energy worrying.  To an extent, there's only so much I can do and people have to try to be happy.  At least I have Al to help me.

Now Al has been the one to snatch away Hillary and he's with her now, been with her since after her ritual.  I'd saved cumming until that ritual and man I ejaculated across the room.  So much sex energy in my energy field cause of all these servitors that are attracted to me.  Anyway, I believe Al is going to be quick to nab away all servitors I make for the purpose of sex.  He's training them himself to please me, and for group fun I reckon.

I was going to make another male Harem Servitor.  But since Simon has now been hanging out with Timothy again, and that is going well, I wanted to make sure Dominic was being taken care of.  We will see how things go.  Hillary is designed to be a friendly, optimistic and unassuming lady.  Apart from the whore stuff.

The symbols in her sigil is a chinese character meaning 'prostitute', the planetary symbol for Pluto, and the rune BJORK for feminine and protective energies.  Even though the rune is the smallest symbol in the sigil, it seems like it's overpowered the others.  When I was first creating Hillary and reading the formative commands something was making me speak softer and less authoritarian, as if to say Hillary may be sensitive.

She is still new, but perhaps she may be sensitive.  But it doesn't matter cause me and my family are nice and she will be fine and taken care of.

welfare checks!

I did a ritual to power all five of them at once.  I also tested the box out on Jayden and believe it worked.  Upon talking and spending time with each Servitor again I came to a disturbing realisation.

I am not a negligent creator x( I don't want to create life that isn't happy, or at the very least, generally sad.  I know I'm not fully responsible, but I do feel a bit of responsibility.

Timothy and Lisa are still getting along famously.

Simon had only been spending time with me and Al for the most part.  When I asked everyone what they'd want additional members of the family to be like (most of them asked for what they want sexually) Simon supposed he wanted a hot guy who'd be into him.  He seemed kinda defeated and depressed in the ritual, and felt like he didn't belong.

Groups or siblings in big families can naturally get cliquey.  Simon feels excluded.  I figured they could make other spirit friends, cause ghosts and fairies are just around right?  But perhaps not.

Dominic had been scarce lately when I've tried to sense him.  In the ritual he felt rebellious to authority, and I figured it was Belial's nature in him.  It was only when I reaffirmed that he could be independent and that I cared about him that he confessed he was sad!  I knew Dominic was a bit separate cause he wasn't programmed to be caring like the others, but I hate that Simon and Dominic have felt excluded and sad.

There have been subtle signs that I've been overlooking: Timothy blocking my sensing that time, Simon only hanging out with me and Al, Dominic being so scarce to my senses.  From this point onward I'll be doing welfare checks, talking to each of them one-on-one every now and again to make sure nobody is hiding anything, and to make sure they have a moment to speak about whatever they want to.

I haven't even spoken to Al about it yet cause it feels like they're taking what I said in the ritual to heart and are talking things out.  Lisa and Dominic may finally be mending things.  I don't mind if some of my Servitors don't like each other, but I do care if any of them are unhappy with their lives.  I'm sure Al knows people/spirits/other incubi.  He is often out doing stuff, though still in reach simultaneously.  And when we have sex other spirits Al knows jump in.  So I will suggest he introduce some of the servitors to other spirits so they can mingle socially, I'll talk to him about it and see what he thinks.

As for Jayden, it sure feels like he lights up a room.  He is sociable.  I reckon Lisa has particularly taken a liking to him.  Which is good, cause partially he was designed for her.

Here are some more images of my cutie Simon.

xo Encore19

Harem (sex) Servitors

So I'm back at it again.

Here's thinking I'd be done for a while after making my four wards.  Figured I'd do some astral World Building or spend my time detailing the eight profiles of my team of Harem Servitors.  I have outlined them, but I still figured it'd be a month or so before I created life again.

After creating Jayden however, my four servitors AND Allan, threw a party basically.  They were so happy to have a new member added to my growing family.  Heads up, it's probably gonna get HUGE.

But I'm gonna see what I can do about ensuring it won't be a burden on me.  If it can be.  Anyway

Here is Servitor 005.  His name is Jayden.

Yes, a redhead.  His body is actually heaps buff.  I found a six-pack chiselled torso and stuck his face to it and it worked, cause that's how I see him.

Jayden is a party boy player who likes to try different things and experiment sexually. I said in his description that he doesn't love me. The Harem class of Servitors are different in a few ways.  For one, only me and Allan are involved in their creation, seems like that's how it's gonna be.  The Wards have a very important job so I needed them empowered.  Their sigils (and I never reveal them publically) are also different, Jayden's contains the symbol for Sagittarius, Uranus and a rune.  To help inform his personality.

He's had one ritual and I orgasmed while staring into his sigil.  I sure am turned on by him.

The key main difference between Harem Servitors and Ward Servitors is that these Harems will be linked to amulets.  I call them amulets but I made them myself out of arts-and-crafts supplies, look:

A different coloured bell with different coloured plastic string and the first three letters of their names.  The others are already made and only need me to create life and attach it to them, but that WILL take time.  I aint makin' seven new servitors all at once, regardless of how happy everyone gets when someone new comes along.  And honestly, not all of these sex servitors are going to be as funny, charming or perhaps nice as Jay.  I got some pretty dark desires too man.

It's getting harder to sense them, I used to pick things up like that but now it's like they're in a crowded room.  I reckon Jay and Lisa have hit it off (he's bisexual), Jay and Dominic share a mutual interest.  Jay has certainly got to know Timothy, Simon and Allan.  But I can't say much more just yet.

The reason why I'm attaching them to amulets is because I also have a box covered in symbols, writing and a rune.  It's a recharge and nap-time box.  When I'm not using a sex servitor and don't want them out and free for whatever reason, I need only put them in the box.  They are put into a comfortable sleep and are being nourished.  If their amulet breaks they are simply no longer linked to it.  When out of the box, they may feed off sexual energy.

I should get some hours sleep before work tonight, so I'll test out the box with Jay now.  We'll both have a nap before tonight.

support

It's days like these where I'm thankful for the loving support of my spirit family.

I was very upset last night, had been drinking, and Al has been taking care of me.  He is so sweet.  Just hugging and being close and loving.  I have also been given support by Timothy, Simon and Lisa.  The four of them are surrounding me.  Dominic stands off in the corner and doesn't give emotional support, rather just watches on.  I'm fine with that cause he wasn't programmed to be nurturing like that, I already have four kind spirits around me now.

Lisa is actually particularly healing.  Her feminine energy is healing some kind of emotional wound. She is at my upper left corner providing supportive energy, near where Al is sitting.  Simon is lying beside me to my right, as normal.  Timothy is standing a little farther but still close on my left.

Perhaps it was a stretch to call them "rebellious".  Timothy is programmed to be like an older brother to me, so perhaps he gets annoyed by the power dynamic, which I can understand, having a younger brother myself.  Timothy and I had sex and it was surprisingly good.

I may have underestimated him.  I don't think he's likely to be hurt by Dominic.  In fact, they may not be dating as exclusively anymore, it may just be casual between them, but I already decided I wouldn't pry.  Still can't help but sense the occasional thing as it comes to me.

Al can feel quite stern for a Leo at times.  I find him a sexy dominant.  He's always liked it when I have sex with multiple spirits.  Lucky that I didn't specify much when I first asked for an incubus, cause I may have asked for a sexually possessive one, but Al's laid-back attitude when it comes to multiple partners seems to be what was best.  He is very on-board with the making of sex servitors.

I've bought some little bells and a box, cause my Harem Servitors (that will be their class) will be attached to items and have their own special rules.

I asked Al and my servitors what they would like a new servitor to be like.  Al just said "smart", he'd want one to be smart.  After he couldn't think of anything too specifically; I thought he might want one who is a part-time assistant to help him with whatever he's doing, cause sometimes I can feel that he's busy.  But no I can feel he doesn't want/need that.  Now Dominic was quick to say that he'd want a sexual girl servitor to have sex with.  Upon asking the others Timothy said he'd like a younger brother to take care of a bit (which is super sweet), Lisa would like a nicer version of Dominic, and Simon supposed he'd like a hot guy who was into him.

They basically just want sexual partners.  Apart from Al and maybe Timothy.  I may be able to fit these requested characteristics into the eight Harem servitors I plan to make.  I'll do a lot of planning and maybe make a few profiles before I actually create another... most likely.

I also reckon I'll do another empowering ritual with all four of them at once.

Here's more pictures of Timothy:

He quite likes cute pictures of himself being put up.

xx Encore19

teenage rebellion!

The good news, my four servitors are growing into their independence nicely. As I designed them to be fairly free and their own people, what has come of that is the natural testing of waters it seems. The natural rebellion of new spawn.

Nothing dramatic. I’d put in their programming that they can’t harm me and must be loyal to me. Buuut for a day or so I was having difficulty feeling them out. I didn’t push it, I didn’t think to, I just left it and then asked Dominic during his second ritual.  (Each of them has two)

Turns out Timothy and Dominic are involved, romantically it seems, and Timothy was trying to keep me out so I wouldn’t meddle or pry. My only concern is that nobody gets hurt and that there isn’t any major discord later down the line. Timothy was blocking my ability to sense them and the others were excitedly waiting around to see what would happen. Reminiscent of children misbehaving for the first time. I thought my incubus would be furious, but Simon went to him to explain the situation while upset, and I think that calmed him.

I have agreed to stay out of what is going on between Timothy and Dominic.  Of course I could force myself in if I wanted to, but I don't want to upset anyone.  I'm sure this is happening cause of what I said in the last post, that I wouldn't care if my servitors dated each other.  I didn't expect them to want it to be so secretive though.  And Timothy is majorly keeping their goings-on private.

I wanted to talk to Al about it and imagined us in a black wall-cube so WE could have privacy, and he showed me how to simply put the four Servitors in individual black boxes instead, a forced time-out.

Anyway to describe how things are going between the four so far: Timothy and Lisa are friends and enjoy each other's company.  She may be more privy to what is happening with him and Dominic actually.  Timothy and Dominic may be dating now.  I suspect more information will naturally come out over time.  Dominic and Lisa aren't the best of pals but they feel okay with each other.  A joking animosity almost.

Simon has been spending time with Al.  I don't reckon he's been spending a whole lot of time with the other three in comparison.

As for me, I made a house for us to have fun in on Minecraft.  Its a useful game cause everything is to scale.  Now I need only create it on the astral.  Making realms or 'world-building' seems similar to making Servitors and I have bought a grid-book so I can go full nerdy with that as well xD

As the purpose of this blog was originally to talk about my incubus Al, I must not neglect updates on him.  He doesn't want me talking about what we enjoy sexually.  Privacy is big for spirits isn't it?  Anyway when I jerk off to porn while imagining he's fucking me, he can hold back my orgasm after I ejaculate and the result is this longer wave of pleasure. 

Mmm I can feel him hugging me.  Love you baby ~

xo Encore19

the Four Wards

With the creation of Servitor 004, my fourth and final ward with the help of Belial, my elite guarde of astral defenders is complete.  His name is Dominic.

He sure is fine-looking.  And yeah, despite being relatively new we've boned.

Anyways... group dynamics.

Timothy and Lisa seem to get along most well.  At the moment I can feel Timothy training Dominic like he did Lisa, he's such a good and faithful servitor.  Hmm seems a little debasing to refer to any of them as servitors, even if that is what they are.  Cause most servitors are much more basic.  Oh well.

Lisa does enjoy Timothy's company.  But I think she was slighted in some way by Dominic.  I probably should've warned her but I didn't create Dominic with friendliness in mind.  That'd account for our pleasantly rough experience (ha).  But yeah I told her that due to the fact she was surrounded by just two gay dudes for company, Timothy and Simon, and I am basically completely gay myself, I made my fourth servitor bisexual.  With a 'just in case' thought in mind cause I can always make more bi male Servitors.

But yeah, in being aware of Dominic having the dominant personality I specified, the lack of formative commands stating expressly that we're friends or that he's friendly.  I mean, I already had three friendly and kind Servitors, and the fact that I included that Simon "can be cunning" was to just make the dynamic more interesting, honestly.

I don't want in-fighting, but they don't all have to be chummy.  Makes me feel even more like a god in a way.

Dominic I can tell you would be fine with being a servitor I have sex with.  I was thinking of making Servitors for the explicit purpose of having sex with, but is there much point to that really?  I'm already in a romantic relationship with Simon.  Dominic likes fucking me, and Timothy probably would too.

I may need to take some time, seriously consider new rules or whatever else.  Maybe different forms for whatever new servitors I make.  Whether they be angelic or, honestly the options are limitless.  Truly limitless, and that's what makes this so fun!  If I really am to make many servitors, then I need to limit my interactions with the new class somehow.  It requires a lot more thinking.

As a Libra, of course I'm fascinated by social dynamics, partnerships and co-operation.  And with Scorpio heavy in my chart, I reckon I'm also intrigued by truthful, genuine relationships.  Pleasant or otherwise.  So that'd be why this is so fun for me and fascinating to study and record.

Shit this is off track and I ramble...

So... Dominic is new, Timothy is helpful, Lisa is chillin.  Simon is loving and I can't look at a picture of him without being struck.  I have sex with him the most, and take on a dominant role with him, which is fun.  Despite both being gay, Simon never seemed to look at Timothy that way, just me.  I don't know what I'd do if two of my Servitors started dating each other, ha.  I would like to know for documenting purposes and also to make sure nobody hurts anyone cause we don't want anyone in a lot of pain for any reason.

Thanks for reading xx
-Encore19

update on the new family

Soooo got some stuff to cover.  Reports on how things are coming along, if you will.

Al is everpresent as I like it.  I got drunk with my friends and called out to him and he came closer, sating my drunken need for extra affection from him.  Slept over my friends house cuddling a pillow, imagining cuddling my Al.  Hmmmmm I love cuddling him.

Anyway the Servitors.  My family of wards.

Timothy is much the same.  I've not done anything sexually intimate with him yet, though that could change.  I leave it entirely up to my Servitors to do what they want in most regards and what they're comfortable with.  Timothy likes the idea of more friends and more family to talk to.  He is helping my latest Servitor to speak.  He feels a little impatient with Servitors that are developing, but is still helpful and helping them, which is great.

Due to Timothy's 'holding back' I won't have much more of an intimate time getting to know him until I get around to it.  But I reckon that's how it should be.

Simon doesn't hold back.  He loves me and wants me, and we're in a relationship of sorts now.  It's very sexual, I can feel this sexual energy all around my body, my energy field.  It's been there the last few days and I believe it has come from Simon.  This is quite unexpected, and maybe Lucifer had a hand in this.  Al and Simon have talked things out before, and I'm not sure of the specifics, but I could probably guess if I tried.  Though so long as they've worked things out between them that's fine.

I'm glad this has happened.  It's healing for me.  And is likely to help me in my relationship with Al too, I reckon.  I'll let you know how things develop.

Now Servitor 003, who has just been created, her name is Lisa.

I found her appearance from a model whose pictures were on Pinterest.  Like Simon she is based off a persona I invented in high school.  While I typically roleplayed as Lisa on the internet to talk to boys (lol) she was also a charming and intelligent woman.  On top of the sex stuff.

I had Lilith help me create her, and it worked tremendously.  I could feel Lisa quickly, and her speaking in the early jumbled way of new Servitors.  I felt her refer to Lilith as "mother".  I look forward to seeing how she develops and I hope everyone will get along.

I have one final ward to make, and then my quartet of astral protection is complete.  Afterwards I'd been thinking of sex servitors, but perhaps that will be unnecessary.  I can feel that Al is interested in the idea of sex servitors for me.

Perhaps I will make some, but maybe... with commands that will keep them from loving me?  Really what I can do is endless.  I can make them fundamentally different to the Ward class of Servitors in some way.

Decisions, decisions.  Fun, fun.

xx Encore19

Servitors

I'm excited to write this post.  I remembered that one retired blog that I love here "ASuccubusLovesMe" mentioned a servitor companion he created.  And then I was ecstatic cause I realised I could talk to you all about mine!

I have always been a very creative person.  When I was young I played an imaginary game with my brother that was so complicated and continuing, it was basically a TV show, an anime.  There were powerful immortal god-like wizards called Elementals that created artificial life (teenagers usually) with superpowers called Crushers.  I've written stories for that game, it became so complex, spanning years and awarding me with a plethora of creative resources to dig from.

Imagine my elation when I realised I could play this childhood game in real life.  I can create Servitor Thoughtform companions to my own specification, create my own family who will live and think and feel on their own, and interact with me.

I want to make so many.

Currently I have two, the second one I birthed yesterday.  Those of you familiar with the occult probably know about Servitor Wards.  These are thoughtforms you create to guard and protect you on the astral from parasites or other undesirable things.

Sometimes I like to complicate ideas, because I'm creative, so I decided I would have four wards but that I'd take time into creating them individually and make them special.  I bought a fancy covered book to write in, a folder to keep track of my creations.  The book has a pentagram and Tibetan tulpa symbol and 'egregores' written on the front page.

Here is Servitor 001.  His name is Timothy.

A few of you may recognise this face as belonging to an English soccer player.  I don't want to use anyone too famous.  And I don't want to use anyone too attractive either.  I like good-looking appearances, but model perfection just doesn't enchant me so much.

I am enlisting help with each servitor companion I make.  My incubus Al helped me with Timothy, and he went away for a few days and was busy just training him for me.  Since he's a ward he learnt psychic attacking and defending from Al. 

Timothy was originally an imaginary friend I had in primary school and thought of for years after.  Older brotherly.  While I specified that these servitors be sexually attracted to me, I'm making no demands of them other than their protection purpose.  I do want them to be fairly free and grow and live.  I'm grateful to my beloved incubus Al for taking care of them for me.  He did want to do things for me, and now I have a feeling he may have his hands full at times.

Timothy's personality has already grown.  He feels very light and happy, how I felt at the age of his conceptual birth as a joyous ten-year-old.  He prefers to wear typical knight chain-mail armour to the black edgy armour I tried picturing him, and that's fine.  I'm glad he's evolved enough to have preferences.  He has a command word (not a kill switch) and can feed off starlight.  I could actually feel him communicating that he wanted a friend/sibling, so off I went designing my second ward.

Here is Servitor 002.  His name is Simon.

Simon was created with the help of Lucifer, who I evoked and was happy to infuse this ward with his energy and power.  Simon is still in developmental stages, but after his creation Timothy nabbed him away and it feels like they've been spending a lot of time together while Simon learns.  Simon can feed off moonlight.  I'm hoping everyone will get along.

Simon's appearance came from some random German guy I found on Instagram by searching a specific hashtag.  He was originally a persona I created in high school, someone I pretended to know.  I pretended he was my ex-boyfriend or longtime friend, and that we were still close in a platonic way.  He was an alter-ego almost, not someone I wanted to be but a chance to be someone completely different if I wanted.

His concept had a distinct feel as well.  Both of these boys could be dominant and dark, but I believe I've overridden that with their programming and the command word precaution.  Both of these servitors are gay and for a moment I could see them standing around me with my third-eye.

Seems like a fantasy don't it?  Being guarded by beautiful gay men my age.  Almost like a yaoi harem anime.  But I repeat that these wards aren't specifically for that. If I am to create wards for sex, which I may do, that will be a different category of servitor.  For the moment I'm happy to be making these wards.  I will do another ritual for Simon and after he's developed enough I'll make my third and then fourth ward.

(Am thinking I should evoke Lilith and Belial to help with the other two.  For Lilith's, perhaps I'll make a girl.  For Belial's, I'll need to specify that his servitor not be too "lawless" not be too "without a master".  But so long as Belial's servitor fulfils its primary purpose, protects me, and is a companion and gets along with the others, I'm not the type to pointlessly lord authority over them anyway.  We'll see how I go ~ xx)

-Encore19

visualising

Awake interactions with an incubus are obviously less vivid than sleeping ones.

Dreams are clear and different to other dreams.  I mean you wouldn't call them dreams, but they happen when you're asleep.

Anyway I felt that my incubus wanted me so I decided I'd visualise being with him while masturbating.  I did something that I don't recall doing before, which is stupid cause it sounds like something I really should've been doing.  Something to recommend to all incubi/succubi keepers:

I took deep breaths and closed my eyes, imagining myself moving away from my body, let the room and thoughts go foggy.  Move out until Al was more clear.  And he was easier to feel, but nothing like a dream instance.  I could feel him fucking me from behind, a sensation of penetration down there that I can feel with ease while awake.  He had cropped brown hair and when I came I felt him orgasm into me as well.

Then I had to go clean up even though I reckon he wanted me to stay.  I ought to do this exercise again but just to talk and communicate, come back and write everything down.  I think we do a good job at communicating emotionally while I'm in normal wake state, like I can get impressions off him by now.  He definitely seems to prefer me to talk to him out loud, and maybe he doesn't even hear my thoughts all the time like I expected.

Ahhhh I can feel him reading this and being happy and touching me and being cute.

I had a bad dream not long ago.  Al's presence was with me as I dreamed, but his presence always feels close, even when I think he's away doing other things, like perhaps training my servitor.  In my dream I thought I was cuddling with Al, cause I could feel him, but it was some horrible skeletal ugly astral creature of basic intelligence.

Or maybe it was Al seeing if I'd still want him if he were ugly?  Or maybe it was Al reflecting a subconscious fear that part of me believes he may be a parasite pretending to be an incubus?  Like how my subconscious Christian fears may believe he is just a demon fucking me to blaspheme God, defiling one of his redeemed children.

(I have to admit that's a fantasy that turns me on though.)

xx Encore19