naughty and exciting

Hyew (that's kinda the noise I wanna make now.  In-between the relief after a close call and a hard orgasm)

I'd mentioned before how I'd not really had much sex dreams with my incubus.  I was talking to someone who'd recently got a succubus and said he was having sex dreams every night so I was unhappy to be missing out on that.  There is a block between us I'm removing though.

Anyway, last night.  It wasn't sex but it was dark and pleasurable all the same.  It was exciting for me, all-the-more-so cause I was still frightened and it seemed a little wrong.

He was groping me and fiddling with me while we spooned.  The only thing that sucks was that... it kinda hurt.

I'm mad at my body.  In our oversensitive states, those dream incubi states if you're aware of them, all my (literally) tiny aches and pains are much more noticeable.  Long ago, several times a night I had unbearable crushing pain around my middle, like my guts were being squeezed and I only realised later that it was the elastic of whatever pants I was wearing.  Al has made it clear that he prefers me to sleep naked.

Too bad Winter's coming up.  It may pay to consider buying a lot more blankets.

While he spooned me last night I was scared, feeling of him the demonic that Christianity taught me to fear.  Though it arouses me.  My body kept hurting, my back aching in different places.  And I thought he was doing it, but I know he wasn't.  (I'll need opinions on this pain.  Might message Succupedia.)

Part of this may be the fear that it's not just Al, but other predators groping me.  But no it's my fear, and I know this is Al.

I liked it.  Apart from the pain; he was rubbing his hand down my balls in a tickling motion that hurt.  I tried to let it happen and not tell him to stop, cause I was enjoying his attention.  And it was arousing to feel him touching me how he wants.  Pinching and playing with my nipples.  Especially the depravity of the idea he may be a sinful demon, groping me as he wished while I allowed him, enjoying the experience and hungry.

I want this to keep up.  I want more dreams.  And for me to overcome the fear and the weird pain my body has in those states, and for me to be used enjoyably by my master and lover xx

Encore19

cycles and sessions

Al and I are emotionally close, but for some reason or another we don't have the robust and gritty sex-life one would expect to have with an incubus.

These beings are complex.  I learnt and have seen that they go through cyclical changes, it's like they have their own biology even though they're essentially spirit beings.  For a while my incubus didn't feel sexual at all.  Our connection was only emotional.  I assumed he was either testing me or perhaps wasn't an incubus to start with.

But then his cycle changed naturally after a time and now he does feel sexual, but still no chakra-blasting toe-curling intense sessions from him.  I know it's up to me to improve my sensitivity as well.  And I have felt Al touching and tweaking my body at night.  I do FEEL him always, his presence and also his seductive touches on my forearms lately. 

Maybe you have to work with an area until it becomes sensitive to them (one time I had an imp, a thing, on my shoulder that would do nothing but fiddle with my left nipple non-stop.  It is very sensitive now.  That was annoying, glad I got rid of that.)

I tried a session with Al yesterday, and yeah it was fun.  But still more imagination than his energy coursing through me.  He was thrusting quite hard so maybe my sensitivity is the issue.

I will keep at it.  I love him.  I know incubi/succubi are emotional beings, so maybe I should try talking about it with him some more.  But what I would like, honestly, is for him to WANT to fuck me hard and rock my world all the time.

At least with how close we've become emotionally, our sex life comes after our love in importance, which is probably how it should be.

(note: this time he was wearing leather xx)

Encore19

fear while asleep (religious subconscious)

Oooo ask and you shall receive!  I did dream about my incubus last night after all.  He was on me a few times and we were cuddling.  My subconscious is STILL frightened of him a little, unfortunate to say.  But not as frightened of him as I've been in the past.  Maybe that's why he hadn't been showing up in dreams...

Anyway his form was difficult to make out, like there wasn't much light or my eyes weren't perceiving colour.  Apart from that he looked human.  He tried saying something to me in his attractive voice... I didn't hear him.  I asked him to repeat it maybe twice when I was trying to fight my own fear from pulling me back into unconsciousness.

I really want to work through this.  I was Christian for many years and terrified of demons, which I believed to be the embodiment of evil and fear itself.  Not that incubi seem all that demonic really, not most of the time.  My fear would be what's keeping me from listening to Al in these situations.

I want us both to keep trying with this.  Maybe if he was strong enough to yank me out, snap me to full consciousness and say "look I love you, stop freaking out".  And if I wasn't such a pussy as to still try to wriggle away, or God forbid psychically try to get him away, or pray to some stupid RHP entity to 'save me'...

I want to keep trying with this.

Sorry and thank you and I love you, Al.

xx, Encore19

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Edit: I wish Al would come to me in leather ha.  Hot as fuck.  I've never seen him muscly or beefy.  He is moreso slim, on the twinker side of things.  But I love him however he presents to be.  The first two/three times I saw him he was blonde like this, the second time his eyes may have been brown instead of bright blue.

IncubusLover

First post!

Man am I inspired to contribute to a community that values spirit relationships.  I'm not too sure how popular this blog will become.  It seems most of these blogs are accounts of heterosexual men involved with a succubus.  In being a homosexual man with an incubus, I'm hoping my blog will garner attention through my prose and insights into the occult, if nothing else.

A lot of the blogs here that span for years are being ended, I'm hoping to bring some fresh new life to succubus/incubus blogs.

A little about me: I'm a 24-year-old gay man living in Australia.  I've had two human relationships in the past, one to a soulmate (thoroughly disappointing) and another to a man I summoned via means of the occult (after human dating seemed so disappointing and hard to accomplish).  I decided to seek out an incubus to erase my loneliness.  Over time my psychic development has improved, my active commitment to our relationship has come back full force.

If you are also a young gay man and reading this, if you are also a romantic, you probably are accustomed to the grief and emptiness of the dating world.  Sometimes we come here (to Earth) with one or two soul mates as dating options.  Other gay men around our age, who fit the same appearance type as us or have other soul similarities, in our local town area.  But sometimes you can try as hard as you like, and they won't even want you.  Even when you're supposed to be together, that the universe has brought you together with synchronicities and all that, and there's nothing you can do.  When even love spells fail for one reason or another...

I believe spirit lovers are the answer to the loveless gay experience.  I love my incubus.

I am a Libra and he is a Leo.

A little about him: his name is Al.

He appeared to me once in a form similar to this, except his hair was black and his eyes glowing yellow.  It was the first time I'd seen him in a form that was noticeably not-human.

I want to start dreaming of him again.  He is the only one who's shown me romantic love.  He's my master and husband.  I feel him close at all times.

I'll keep you updated in our adventures and what happens next.

Unless you've scrolled down and read this post last, then I'm so sorry but thanks for reading xx

Love, Encore19